Some of the above are not completely finished but while going into creating something with a different mindset and mainly for nothing I feel that I had successfully created something where I was actually really relaxed in doing, and I also think that the viewer can see how I was feeling through my pictures pale, calm colors that I have used. My main inspiration is what really relaxes me which is usually when I’m away from the situation and simply going as simple as I can get. I find that I am at my most relaxed state when I away from people and man made obstacles. I am starting to think that its maybe other people who creates most of my personal stress because with people more complex things follow, while nature is simple and not unusual. The sound of water is proven to have a relaxing effect on people and other ideas of relaxing is simply things where I literally give myself no room to get stressed. I really feel that people have a special connection with nature that they need in their everyday lives but don’t really realize it. It is thought that by simply introducing plants into the workspace the moral and production of that enviroment gets enhanced which I really think has something to do with evolution and being subconsciously in a more familiar enviroment. This is something I wanted to bring back to my home and workplace. So had created things with this in mind which tends to relax me a lot more. Although this will not completely stop my stress I do personally feel more relaxed when I look at the images so can safely say that I have successfully managed to make something which helps me personally.
I also think that I understand when I work best and what makes me stressed to start with. Everyone will at some point get stressed but I feel that these images will help me personally by brightening up my workspace and enviroment. Whether they have a similar effect on other people I do not know as everyone is different. But my main projects goal was my own personal well being so mainly focused on understanding more about myself which I feel I have. It would now be interesting to see what other people find relaxing and whether or not my theory of that link between nature and well being is something that helps not only me.
During my time studying Play and Creativity I have learned a lot more about my own personal well being as well as glimpses of how other people work. What I have found out while studying the course is that a healthy well being is a real important part of creativity as it allows us to be in a state of mind which allows us the maximum potential to produce something more powerful.
From this course I mainly wanted to understand more about myself personally as I have always came across creativity blocks and walls during my time at study. This has always had impacts on my work and self confidence and I wanted to try and understand why I hit these walls and ways for me to get around them. What I have come to release is that most of my blocks come from a time where I am really stressed, so I tried to keep narrowing down why I was stressed and ways to improve to help me overcome similar situations in future.
I have learned a lot about how people think in different environments and that by over thinking things a lot like a adult isn’t always the best move to consider while trying to create something as a lot of the time adults won’t allow themselves the chance to fail which is a part of the creativity process that allows us a chance of a accidental better result. What I find is that I do not allow myself the freedom to fail because of lack of time left or the worry of being self failed over something I am not proud of. I try to push myself too much which adds to the stress when things don’t go my way. What I have noticed is that the very thing a should be doing I am not allowing myself which is the very thing of play.
I have come to notice how much more accomplished my results were in the past when I allowed myself to play but time after time I find myself being drawn out of my playfulness and into a state of mind where I am worried of going wrong. I had also found this during my project where I kept changing my mind on a outcome until I come to realize why it was in the first place that I was getting stressed and that’s perfection issues. Once I had noticed what makes me stressed (giving myself a hard time and worried of failure) I later tried to remove it by looking at what makes me more relaxed which I found to be mostly things where I removed myself from the situation and ended up in a more simple relaxing place. Usually within nature I find or sounds of natural water running where I like to put myself in a totally new area away from everything in my own mind. Using this I later go on to creating paintings where the making of them I was in a relaxed state which was done when I removed the worry of creating something for someone. Instead they were to be used as nothing and simply decoration for myself in my own workspace to hopefully brighten it up a little and help motivate me into working better.
I find that when I removed all boundaries and convinced myself that the work being produced was for nothing, I gave myself no reason to be stressed even though the deadline was gloaming which didn’t help. Using this state of mind as well as play really helped me achieve results that I am proud of and I feel that they actually work for me personally as in make me feel more relaxed when I look at them. Using nature/sand/water and calm colors as my inspiration I feel that I have managed to bring out results which can help a certain enviroment by brightening up the place a bit. The use of simplicity and feel really helped me just go with it and create unique worry free results in both spectating and the creation of the piece.
This course has really shed a lot of light on myself as well as other people’s mindsets. We often overlook a lot of things or think too much into something that we simply don’t allow ourselves the right to failure. Society has beaten out the chance to fail without worry which return has kill playfulness. Now that I understand a little more into where I personally am going wrong, and even though I cannot completely remove stress, I plan to try and minimize it in future and allow myself the chance to fail and placing my paintings in my workspace to help keep me more relaxed. (a lot like when people introduce plants)
Here are some examples of ideas that was at the time where I wanted to take my project. (However this changes at a later stage)
From looking at simple things such as a brick in a wall, I had noticed glaring eyes peering back at me which automatically turned the brick into a character that is redrawn below.
I had noticed that I was doing this everyday subconsciously (mainly when alone and deep in thought). It is as if the outside and my surroundings already have most of my answers which I take snippets of inspiration from in my every day life and now that I have noticed it, I’d like to do something on it in future.
Some more Pareidolia that I have found;
What do you see?
Going off what a friend suggested, I would say that I have to agree that most of the pareidolia that I had found were subconsciously human like or had eyes. I think that eyes were one of the main things which made my brain switch into a mod where I turned a object into a character. However I do not think that this is the only way as light one shining threw my windows suggests. I am not sure if being tired and real relaxed has something to do with it but a lot of the time while laying in bed looking out the window a lot of images and ideas pop into my head while I study water marks etc.. on my window which can back the theory up of how important a relaxed well being can be in the idea generation and process of creativity. One a person isn’t as relaxed you do not allow your mind to wonder or it is mainly focused on that one thing which is stressing you out in the first place which is something I am starting to think that I do a lot when I get stuck.
Journey Photographs Blue; (longer one with friend)
Photographs from journey Red;
What I have found from both these walks is that I tend to come up with a lot more ideas when I was alone rather then with a friend where we both stuck with one (even though there was more inspiration around). I also found that my levels of stress increases with closer I came to the deadline which added even more pressure for me to come out with an outcome which I was at the time struggling to do. What I found is while I was with a friend I had one main idea which was to go out and use whats around me as inspiration for pieces. These were ideas from pareidolia that basically means that my brain recognizes things such as clouds or trees and can generate faces or characters out of them that I was hoping to draw from. But while doing this the main focus of mine was what relaxes me more over where my inspiration comes from.
Journey one – Blue
This was done with a friend where we both walked around 6/7 miles away while taking photographs while exploring both urban and hillside environments. Our main aim was to try and capture objects or things of interest that I could later use in order to create a illustration out of at a later date.
What I found was although this was fun at the time I felt that my idea was a lot more weaker and we both simply didn’t take as much notice as to our surroundings even though we were in a area which neither of us have not been in since we were children.
Journey two – Red
This one was done on my own at a time where stress was building because of me not having confidence in my first idea. What I did here was simply go out at a time just to get away from what stress I had created and to forget about all my ideas as a whole and to start again from scratch without the worry of the end results. What I found here was even though the journey was a lot shorter and took place in similar areas, this short amount of time and journey manage to give me a lot more ideas then the first one and I also found and took notice of a lot more things which I thought I could use at a later date and it even gave me another different idea to use.
This is an extension of the last exercise but this time the paper was a lot larger and on the floor to try and get us a lot more engage with the piece. The outcome again didn’t matter on what it was or what it looked like and was set to try and show us the difference between focusing and not.
To start with I sat myself down in the middle of the paper and then just blocked out everything and focused on breathing a lot like the last piece. But every now and then my lecturer would come around and place a object in the middle of the floor which we was then told to draw. This was aimed to try and get use understanding the difference between focusing and not while just going with it which both work hand in hand to create much more interesting outcomes.
With this experience though I think that I kind of got the idea of the feeling between which is which but I didn’t really understand when I was more focused or not as sometimes I was concentrating on breathing that much that it felt no different to when I was drawing. However that being said this session has tort me that by just going with the flow and allowing myself the chance to make mistakes I am able to create better things. I feel like most if not all my stress comes from a time where I do not allow myself to make a mistake as I feel like I will be judged on it at a later date and even run out of time to actually create something self satisfying.
This is a image of the charcoal line work I did while simply trying to draw my breathing. You cannot really make out the lines very well anymore because it was layered up too much from doing it over and over again. But this image shows a way of me trying to forget everything around me and a lot like meditation I was simply *Being in the present and focused on each breath I took while drawing and trying to translate that onto the sheet.
This was trying to get us out of the worrying mind set and to get us to use our core if you like to create artwork as the theory behind it is that creating is not just a mind and a hand thing, but a whole self engagement into the piece.